I HATE MY HEAD

this scenario happens in my life from time to time:

• I send an e-mail or a phone call to a friend.
  
• No response. Like for a while.
  
• I send an another e-mail or a phone call.
• No response. Like for a longer time.
  
• I wait. I think. I wonder.
• I send a final flare in the air
• No response…
  

Now, the mind game begins:

1. Bet they’re mad a me.
2. No they’re not. You dork. They never got your e-mail. Your e-mail system sucks.
3. Bet I did something wrong.
4. No, they probably are just busy. There is more to life than your calls.
5. Maybe they never got the message.
6. Maybe my friend lost my number.
7. Bet they’re mad at me.
8. They hate me.
9. Maybe they never talk to me again.
10. Maybe I should call again.
11. Maybe they’ll yell at me if I do.
12. I’m over-reacting. I’m like a high school drama queen. Someone slap me.
13. I wish I could just see them so I could ask them face to face.
14. I think they hate me.
15. Yep. They must hate me.
16. …. I’d like to think about something else… but my brain is stupid.

I HATE MY HEAD. I HATE IT WORSE THAT I CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK.