Husband. Dad to 5. Student Ministry Pastor. Follower of Jesus. Yatta yatta.

POTENTIAL FEAR

Well, tonight at church, our teaching pastor, Ed Noble, hit on my greatest fear with this quote:

“God doesn’t guarantee that you’re going to live up to your potential. Many will live with, and even die with, tons of potential left over”

That’s my greatest fear. Not an early death, but a pointless life. A life spent consumed by stuff that doesn’t matter. A life spent missing the point.

I believe in potential. I believe in it to the point that it is one of the main reasons I do youth ministry. I believe in the potential of young people. I believe they have a shot at living up to it when they reorient themselves toward their Creator, thus irreversibly change themselves and countless others around them. However, I also believe that most of what a young life is capable of, sadly goes untapped, and I want to challenge them to let God fill that potential to overflow.

But perhaps, one reason that I want so bad for students to tap into their God given potential, is that I personally fear that I might leave so much untapped in my own life.

I fear that I might:

  • Live in a nice house, and miss God’s bigger plan for my financial resources.
  • Have a happy marriage, and miss the joy of an truly intimate one.
  • Settle for raising my boys, and miss the chance to journey with them to manhood.
  • Do ministry that pleases people, and miss the risks that please God.
  • Exchange serving at church, for truly doing life with the Holy Spirit as my guide.
  • Live with contentment, and miss the peace that surpasses understanding.
  • Operate like a consumer, when Jesus wanted me to be a redeemer.
  • Live a full and busy life, and miss the fulfilling and simple life of a one who is fully devoted to God.
I know God’s grace will cover all my shortfalls. I know that. I’m counting on that. I believe that.

But deep down… really deep down… I’d like to minimize what God has to cover up with grace due to my sins of omission. I fear that I might miss the BEST God desired for me to experience, because I was distracted by the “good” of our world instead. I fear even more that the mirror will lie to me. That I’ll miss it because I couldn’t (or wouldn’t) see it, and as a result, my hindsight will be filled with regret, instead of rejoicing.

CROWDER SAYS "HURRY"

Hurry! Before it’s too late.

DESERT BONDING

This last weekend I took our high school men to the desert. 22 high school guys. 6 adults.

Here’s the highlights and some mo pics:

  • FOOD: We ate like kings: the notable taste bud explorations were: marinated teriyaki tri-tip steak and baked potatoes for dinner the first night. Breakfast burritos the next morning. Homemade beef/vegetable stew in bread bowls for dinner the second night. And we capped it off with peach cobbler made in a dutch oven and topped with crushed granola and bagels for our last breakfast. Oh…. that was some good grub.
  • CONVERSATIONS: got to have some good talks with a few of these young men. Some good one-on-one times. Some good group discussions. We examined some principles from God’s word and a book by Brennan Manning called “Posers, Fakers, and Wannabes”. It’s a youth version of his previously released book called “Abba’s Child”. It was great. My favorite memory of the weekend was a Saturday night talk in a canyon where we hiked in some wood and then had a discussion on a rocky hillside about being secure in the fact that God likes us and that we don’t need to impress him or one another. We talked about how God we need to be real, secure, and devoted men in 3 key relationships: (1) with God. (2) with ourselves, and (3) with others. It was a great conversation. The Holy Spirit was clearly there.
  • EXPLOSIONS: Yes we shot clay pigeons and such. But I’m talking fire explosions. Last year, our students discovered that a can of Axe deodorant makes a really big explosion. Like blow embers and wood from your camp fire a good 30 feet in all directions kinda explosion. So this year, we controlled things with 2 fire zones. One was a “bonfire” zone where you could hang and roast marshmallows and junk, and the other was an adult supervised “bombfire” zone where we set HUGE raging fires lite by gasoline trails. The students brought fire works and tons of axe deodorant. I’ll post a picture of what it does to the can in a future post. My camera is in the shop after this trip. Somehow the LCD screen broke. No, I didn’t shoot it. But, one night we did suspended gallon jugs of fuel over the fire using big boards and rope and then shot them open with a rifle from like 50 yards away. It was tons of fun. It was like a Hollywood set. Made me feel like a kid again.
  • EXPERIMENTAL TEAM BUILDING: this year we went out to the desert earlier in the week and hid large pieces of wood that were pre-drilled and cut to make a trebuchet. We hid them in the desert a mile from camp in the rocks in 3 separate directions and groupings. We then divided up the students and gave them a gps unit and told them to go find it and bring it back. It was a good team building exercise. After all the groups were back, we debriefed the experience, assembled the pieces, and then used it to launch 5ish lb rocks some 200 yards. It was pretty amazing. Maybe not as amazing as when we set it on fire and burned it to the ground the last day in an inferno you could only set in the desert, but yeah…. lots and lots of good times here.
  • GAIL FORCE WINDS: We had to eventually cut our trip a few hours short due to wind. I didn’t sleep at all on Saturday night. At about 1 am the wind picked up to the point that it would come ripping through the canyon in like 5 minute intervals and you could hear it coming like a distant wave. Then it would arrive and it blew so hard in knocked stoves off tables. It was so intense that at one point, while I was attempting to sleep in my truck bed, I was startled by the fact that the wind actually picked my tailgate up and slammed it down. It was pretty amazing. I’m ok with skipping it in the future however.
  • GIRL BONDING: So, we were supposed to get everyone up at 5am to watch the sunrise and have a worship experience on Sunday morning. Well, like I said, it was so ridiculously windy and cold that we decided to call it off. However, like 5 students still wanted to go. So, at like 5:15am they showed up at my truck. I told them, they had 2 options. #1. They could go by themselves to the top of the mountains and watch the sunrise and I’d have breakfast ready when they got back. OR #2. they could go back and get their sleeping bags and watch it from my truck bed and we’d have girl cuddle bonding. Cuz it was freaking cold and windy and I couldn’t sleep and I wasn’t getting out of my sleeping bag. Once presented with these 2 options, one of the students said, “I like option 2. No one else argued.” We then cuddled like girls and watched the sunrise. Next year, I’m bringing foot pajamas, nail polish, and warm coco in a thermos.

PLANTING HAPPINESS.


I thought you’d enjoy my flower planting shelf in my back yard. Isn’t it lovely. My mom and I went shopping over my birthday weekend and we compiled quite the boquet don’t you think. Plus, I got it all put on my drip system. Oh, how I love spring time planting. I’ll be sure an update you as they bloom and grow to an amazing color explosion.

CROWDER IS COMING TO TOWN

I now declare the month of October to be David Crowder Loveliness Month. He will be at the house of blues in downtown San Diego on Friday the 12th and I now possess tickets to see him. He will be playing at the National Youth Workers Convention the following weekend which I will also be at. Oh.. I shall get my fix and my heart will be inspired. I can feel it already.

Wanna join me?…. well you’re in luck. If you happen to be one of the few people on the planet who read this blog, you can now have the inside scoop too. I’d normally feel guilty for letting their “secret” get out, but I’m not exactly an influential piece of the web-world…. so now, my blog comes with perks too!!!!! Ooh la la. The crowder band is now offering a limited number of pre-sale tickets to those avid fans who read their blog or frequent their website for a base fee- minus the surcharges and stuff to come with the “official national sales” in May. So as of yesterday, through April 30th… you can buy tickets to their remedy tour at venues around the country directly off their website. They are only playing at local “club” type scenes, so space will be really limited.

Oh, I know… this post feels like a Christmas gift. I felt it too. Share the love and join me in SD if ya want. We’ll sing and laugh and cry out to God together. Maybe we can even grab a nice bit o grub in the gas lamp first.

Shalom…. and may your body and soul find it’s way to a Crowder celebration near you.