I can’t believe I’m admitting this on the web. But I officially have what my track coach in high school called PMS- pre meet syndrome. It’s that nasty I feel like I’m gonna puke, can’t wait to start, excited, scared, nervous, amped, and freaked out feeling you get everytime you stand around waiting to be called to the starting line before the gun finally goes of and you do what you’ve trained so hard to do. I have it- because I’m teaching in “big church” on Friday night and then twice on Sunday for the first time here. I’ve tried to hold it at bay, but like the incoming tide- it’s here whether I like it or not. I’m trying to pray and give it all to God. I know that after I teach a few times in this new space, I’ll relax and feel comfortable again- it’ll feel like I’m home in front of friends. But right now, it just feels like PMS. Ok- that’s all. I’m gonna go pray and study and ask God to do whatever I cannot. Which is a lot. Peace.
i’ve been praying for you this week. you’ll be great – just no car analogies! (nothing like a 10-year old joke)
i know that feeling so well! we used to joke about it because we always had to pee when we toed the line, no matter what. i guess i just learned to empty my mind and take a lot of deep breaths. it kind of became something i embrace but also conquer.